Putting down, stopping, giving back, to receive the new. One thing I have learnt or relearnt. Not being able see the obvious way forward should not result in apathy, rejection or abandonment. In the not seeing I have had to learn or relearn Patience, prayer and that very unfashionable perseverance. In my new role on the team of Spiritual Directors in the Worcester Diocese I have been reading much about prayer. Anthony Bloom wrote about the need for Israel to live a new life after exiting Egypt and finding themselves in the new land. They were not good at this. Exodus 14:12 & 16.3. What they were good at was looking back yearning for the old ways. This was a light bulb moment and I don't get many. I felt or discerned a direction to put things down, to stop, to give things back. This would allow me to see what God would give me back (if anything). Firstly i withdrew my PTO for Birmingham Diocese, severing a 40 year relationship. Then I stopped going to my local Anglican church.
Now back in the Birmingham England exploring what is next.